Well, here I am, a little over a month older and almost in exactly the same place. Well, thats not comepletely true. Let's re-look at things.
Oh, Original Boy: Dealing with Original Boy has been rough. He's constantly thinks he is right, about everything, and he's so obviously not. (I mean, have you met me? I could smoke Ken Jennings at Jeopardy, really, no lie. Ask my ex-college roommate Nic for example.) He also hates most things I cook for him, although I am the next Nigella Lawson Domestic Goddess and cook amazingly. He hates onions. And green peppers. And garlic. That's like the Holy Trinity of cooking people, I mean really. He also lacks tact, so he just does things, and says things, and gives no real consideration about other people's feelings, mainly me. So, we have had many a "discussion" about our relationship and where its going. And really, currently, our relationship is great. Amazing, even. Through our discussions, he's become this great communicator, and while he still lacks tact, we're working on it. He also will eat my cooking and not say anything negative about it and has come to realize that I am not Dumb Ex-Sorority Girl who needs an explanation about how the World Series works (true convo ladies. I know boy stuff too) So maybe, one thing has fallen into place. He does love me. We did date for a year before that whole infactuation for Boy with Jorts thing happened and he was incredibly forgiving and overall lovely about the whole deal. Right now, we are in a good place. So, for that, I am happy. I also am back to living in sin with him. Judge if you must, but I could not live with my aunt any longer. It hurt. A lot.
The Daily Grind: I do have a job. But it's working retail. I am a manager. But a lot of people don't like me there, mainly because I'm new and do things differently, not because of my sparkling, shiny personality and snarky but hilarious comments about everything under the sun. My manager likes things Her way and I have yet to discover what Her way is, mainly because she will give me a task and then once I complete it, change everything because she likes Her way better. So, I spend a lot of my day walking on eggshells and redeeming 20% off Your Entire Purchase coupons. It's a job that's paying for Christmas. After Christmas, we'll stress about finding a REAL job, and I do have eight zillion applications out there for teaching jobs (my original and true calling) but I'm not going to stress about them now. I do think that getting another teaching job will vastly help me feel like my life has "started," mainly because I'll have a set schedule and I can start doing things that I want to do-random events here in Charlotte, hanging out with Original Boy when he has days off (which is Saturday and Sunday, you know, when normal people have days off) but mostly because I will have the money to do said things.
Randomness: My very very very favorite blogger Missy wrote me and said that God has put me exactly where I am supposed to be . Now, while I am a believer that God wants me here, I still have a constant desire to force my own plan on God. I want to teach. I want Original Boy to be THE ONE. I want to have the life I want. I pray, a lot, but my timeline and His are not one and the same, so the waiting is hard. I'm not where I want to be, but I'm better than I was a month ago. Hopefully, I will be better than this a month from now. It will be Christmas and that is my favorite holiday.
Last thing: Lovelys, Election Day is Tuesday. Please go vote. It's important. Especially this election. I also don't care who you vote for, just don't vote Straight Ticket. It's for idiots who are blind to indifference. I will automatically judge you as Not Worth My Time if you do this. You should vote for the person and NOT the party. I have been both a registered Republican (because if you're born and raised in the South, you always are at one time) and a registered Deomcrat (because I went to college and dang it, you're allowed to change your mind.) Currently, I'm a registered Independent, and voting for the Democrat for President and the Republican for Governor. Just go vote. We didn't fight the British so we wouldn't be guilty by association for bad teeth and worse food. We also didn't do it because we didn't want to pay taxes, as it says in the amazing cult classic, Dazed and Confused. We did it because we wanted to tax ourselves. It's your money loves. (Getting down off soapbox)
I'll post more often, I promise...I know you love me
Peace Out
I am inviting myself over.
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